On Sexuality

My sexuality is my own.

It does not belong to any other.

My sexuality is my greatest power and my deepest wound.

My sexuality controls my voice and my work is rooted in all the ways I haven’t been able to SPEAK when another is dictating it’s expression. To hear my body screaming and to betray myself by staying silent.

My sexuality has been robbed time and time again. In this life and many lives before this. It is not my fault. It was never my fault but it is my responsibility.

My moon sits in Scorpio, my mother is a Scorpio, my red thread lies under the earth, suppressed and oppressed and I am here in this life to heal it.

I will not be told how and when and what it feels like, what it tastes like and how to use it. It is not for anyone to define - it is my dharma in this life and I do not take it lightly.

My sexuality is not ruled by anyone’s power because it is MY power. I cannot know this power until I find my voice.

The rage I have felt in this life is the suppression of my voice, the suppression of my voice is the oppression of my sexuality.

Under this Scorpio full moon, my bleed is a force of her own and with it I release the shame, the fear, the retribution, the betrayal.

I am not broken. You are not broken. Your sexuality is not for anyone but yourself.

My sexuality is tender and insatiable. It is exalted and pure and beautiful. I am not afraid of my darkness. I dance in the shadows and invoke what it means to be everything that is light and dark - to ME.

The darkness to me is the earth, the soil, the night, the quiet, the mysteries of life, it’s the feminine. It is the place I go to when I need to find Deep Truths. It’s in the darkest corner of the room where all is illuminated and I see me in my entirety.